I have very mixed emotions when it comes to my feelings for someone that is very close to me, if you saw my " Curious Questions Tag" you would've seen that there were a few questions asking if you're interested in anyone and so on, and at the time i wasn't really sure, and to be honest i'm still not sure, it's very scary because i have this constant reminder of liking a best friend of mine for a while now and every time that i do get a chance to meet up with this person i feel a bit shy and timid when i'm around them face to face, because i feel so vulnerable at the moment and i think to myself " oh gosh yvette don't act out of place or then he will find out you like him" but at the same time if i don't see this person for a while then my mind is content and i seem to kind of forget about liking them at that moment, it's very weird and i'm not so sure if i'm making any sense and if any person can actually relate to how i'm feeling right now. At times i just think of when i'm going to blurt out " I LIKE YOU!!!!!" but then time and time comes and i don't all i do is wonder, and look i've done this before, my ex was a best friend of mine, and it didn't work out clearly, i think i had more feelings for him than he did for me which is fine but ever since i haven't really talked to him like i used to anymore, and he was a really good friend of mine, usually when something happened to me i knew i could trust him and let him know how i felt in the moment and he was always so supportive and always gave me words of encouragement and just positive thoughts to help ease me and i loved that, but now when something happens, i don't go to him, we don't talk as often, i've dealt with it once, and i'm afraid it'll happen again.. we shall see what happens, i'll keep you updated if anything else in my love life happens from here out, take care guys
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